A Prayer for Days When You’re Feeling Scattered

     He made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ. Eph. 1:9-10

Dear Jesus, there are days when I’m, as one of my favorites hymns says, “prone to wander—prone to leave the God I love.” When I get dulled and lulled into that place, it’s usually because I haven’t been spending rich, unrushed time with you—gazing upon your beauty, reflecting upon your glory, marinating in your grace, listening for your singing, tasting your delight—all which come to us so freely in the gospel.

That’s when I get enamored, then hammered, with the illusion that you’re not enough—with the foolish notion that someone or something else might make my life more complete. What a maniacal myth, quintessential foolishness, the most dangerous of all, “bait and switch”.

But that’s not what I’m feeling today. I see your goodness in the gospel, and I don’t doubt your love for me, one bit. Right now I’m just feeling scattered, splintered, discombobulated, pulled in a myriad of directions, with a big school of little piranha nibbling away at my energy and focus.

I so long for the day, as this Scripture promises, when “all things in heaven and on earth” will be brought together in you—that is, “summed up,” integrated, reunited—perfectly one. In light of that Day, please meet me in this day. Center and settle me, Jesus. Take my thoughts captive to your perspective; help me to reel in my vacillating emotions; still the clatter and remove some of the clutter from my spirit. Help me choose the best over the good, the necessary over the nice, the essential over the important.

You are my Lord and my life, my peace and my joy, my anchor and my hope. I love being loved by you, Lord Jesus; and I love you only because you first loved me and gave yourself as a sacrifice of atonement and propitiation for my sins. I am presently and eternally grateful. So very Amen I pray, in your sovereign and loving name.