Lord, you know everyone’s heart. Acts 1:24
Heavenly Father, there are so many things in life that are clearly not our domain, expertise or right. Heart-knowing is one of them. We often speak of being drawn to someone’s heart, or of being offended, confused, or shut out from their heart; but only you really know what’s in each of our hearts. This brings both pause and peace, jitters and joy.
It leads us to pray with humility and expectation, “Search me, O God, and know my heart” (Ps. 139:23), for we cannot and must not trust our own diagnosis. There’s nothing more deceitful on the face of the earth than the heart, including my heart (Jer. 17:9). Only you understand the ways of the heart, Father. Only you can cure my heart’s sin and sickness; its dividedness and prone-to-wander-ness; its distractibility and penchant for idolatry. Do so, Father, to your glory and my freedom. Do so in the name and for the fame of Jesus.
Father, sometimes I think of myself much more highly than I ought—so wanting to believe I’m more like Jesus than reality affirms; more healthy, mature and loving. Sometimes I fall into shame and contempt, and think very depressive and dark thoughts about myself. I start acting like a stranger to your mercy and a foreigner to your grace—like an orphan without a Father above or an outcast without your Spirit within.
Sometimes I just think about myself too much, period; or I get preoccupied with what others think about …